We want Traffic School!

As a result of my recent legal troubles, I had to attend a 4 hour defensive driving class in Rolling Meadows a couple of days ago.

It was fairly boring, there were a couple of decent chicas there so I decided to make some approaches. To keep the blade sharpened, as they say.

Approach 1 - asian who started talking to me. Turned out she was married, she seemed unusually friendly for a married woman though. We talked throughout the class, though, and she kept my mind off the boredom.

Approach 2 - another Eastern European blonde, a little better looking than HBRussianGirl. I hear this voice talking behind me with that accent that I love, and I turn around and ask her for directions to Woodfield. She was really cold and quiet, but later on I found out that she could barely speak or read English.

Pretty good opportunity for situational openers since it is such a unique venue for sarging.

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Nausea, party, girls

I'm going to stop referring to her as HBOldFlame now, I'm just going to go back to calling her HBFrenchGirl. After last weekend I feel like I am back in with her, and she is now another plate that I am spinning.

On Saturday night I was supposed to go to the birthday party of these people I know from work. I had asked HBFrenchGirl to go - she called me up Saturday morning about it, I sent her the address of the party in an email, and told her to call me later on if she wanted to go. I was supposed to meet up with Linux1 and Linux2 for dinner at this place in Andersonville at 8:00, but things got messed up and they wound up meeting at this bar first and joining me at the restaurant a few minutes later. It was still fairly cold out, so I sat at the bar and drank coffee - I called HBPhoneSex and talked to her for a while about stuff going on in her life. She started flirting and getting slightly jealous that I was going to a party later on that night. I don't really have much interest in this girl, and I wasn't going to invite her to go, anyways I had asked her to do something the night before and she gave me some lousy excuse why she couldn't leave because someone was having a christening or something like that.

Out of all the plates, I am least attracted to HBPhoneSex, but she is the one I get along with the best on a personal level. Typical. We still have not met in person, I'm not too worried about it. I just want to keep her around to keep me occupied and maybe as a possible booty call, you know like 'in case of fire break glass'.

Anyways, we have dinner at this Mediterrenean restaurant in Andersonville - and here's where the night starts to get a little messed up. Earlier on in the day I went to the gym and they had this vending machine with protein shakes there. So I decide to have one, as I've always been interested. Anyways, that night after eating I start feeling a little bit gassy. The gassy-ness and a slight feeling of nausea increase when we get to the party it's loud and crowded and I'm also a little depressed that HBFrenchGirl decided apparently not to go, since she has not called me to tell me she was going and where to meet, etc. So I run to my car, and drive home. I'm desperately in need of some Rolaids or Tums at this point. So I go home, and lay down for a while. That Mediterrenean food is pretty hardcore. I'm in bed about to go to fall asleep when I get a call on the phone.

It turns out that HBFrenchGirl and her sister decided to go to the party after all, without calling me ahead of time. They just walked into the people's apartment, and were walking around the party, asking people if they had seen me. Apparently they ran into one of my friends and he told them that I had gone home.

So I put my clothes back on and go back to the party. We hang at the party for a while, I make sure that I am Mr. Social that night, going around making smalltalk with people and not lingering on my two guests. They seem to have a pretty good time. They tell me that 'I'm the coolest guy at the party', and I also notice that the two sisters going around the party asking for me has given me a lot of social proof. HBFrenchGirl is looking cute as always, maybe a little older looking, but that might be due to the fact that it's cold and windy out. We hang out at the party for a while, then I take them back to my apartment and we hang out til like 4 in the morning, talking, ordering food, and then later we watch a movie and they fall asleep on my couch. I am kinoing HBFrenchGirl a lot, and I really want to sexx her, but I feel a little uncomfortable going for it with her sister sitting next to me.

Anyways, when we part ways they tell me that they had a great time and want to get together again soon. The sister called me up yesterday and asked me if I could set up a double date with one of my friends. The problem is - I don't know how to put this delicately - I'm not sure any of my friends would find her attractive. I'm an asshole but I also wouldn't want to put any of my friends in that position. I like the sister a lot, she's a really nice person - but I'm not sure any of my friends would be willing to look past the surface. So that's my problem. The two sisters want to go out again, but they want to go out on a double date and want me to hook the sister up with one of my friends. Meanwhile, I just want to go out with HBFrenchGirl. I have not called HBFrenchGirl yet, although her sister has called me. I'm not sure how to handle this. What I will probably do is not call them, and wait for them to call me, hopefully HBFrenchGirl will call me and I can invite her to come over alone for a booty call.

On Sunday afternoon I took my parents and little brother out to dinner, and helped my other brother move a table from his apartment. My family situation is almost back to normal again. I have a lot of work to do on my career. I'm not sure what's going on with this girl, or any of my friends. That part of my life seems always seems so unstable. I'm just going to play it by ear and try to have fun at this point. I think somewhere along the line I lost the burning desire to find 'the one' and settle down into a committed relationship. Really the only time I really feel like I need a girlfriend is around the holidays, next year I will just set myself up with a decent girl like AHBRussianGirl to keep me company over the holidays, but other than that, being single is a much better way to live your life I think. it's much more exciting not knowing what's going to happen next.

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Old Flame is back

Last night was weird, I had a day2 planned out with HBPhoneSex, but she kept pushing it back then she eventually flaked - something about her cousin whom she lives with, which sounded legit. She did offer to reschedule. I'm pissed that I wasted Friday night waiting around for her - I've decided to next her, but I won't tell her and maybe keep her around for a future booty call.

So ... the big news is that I have been talking on the phone with HBOldFlame. I emailed her sister and asked her how Old Flame was doing. HBOldFlame wound up calling me, and I invited her and her sister out tonight. I am supposed to go to Linux2 and DragonLady's birthday party in Andersonville - there are like 90 people on the guest list, so I don't think they will mind two more.

Old Flame is exactly the same, major attitude. I feel really nervous. I'm in a much better place than I was last year when we met - back then I was a complete mess. I've been thinking about this girl for so long, you have no idea. I have just been dreaming about fucking her. That's really blunt, but I'm just really horny for this girl. I have to really be on tonight - tonight, I will be in full on PUA alpha male mode. No fucking around.

I have to meet Linux1 and Linux2 at this bar at 7 before the party. I told HBOldFlame and her sister to call me when they get into town. Fuck I'm nervous. I'm not going to drink a lot because that always fucks me up. I'm sure I'll have some stories for you all later.

Problems are always bigger in your head

Whenever I sit down to actually face the thing that I have been dreading and avoiding, it is always smaller, less intimidating and time consuming than how I envisioned it to be.

White Lion - Wait

So this is the video for Wait by White Lion. I don't know why I'm posting this, other than I like this song. Notice that the entire video is footage of the girl walking away or looking back as she rides away on the train. How can she leave this dude when he is in such a cool band and they are like, totally rocking it?

"I wanted to send you something fabulously amazing for Valentine's Day...

but the mailman told me to get my ass out of the mailbox" was the text message that AHBRussianGirl sent me. So far, I have not responded to it and I don't intend to.

HBPhoneSex called last night, I texted her back and said 'call u later'. I have not called her and don't intend to. At least not today.

I got an email from HBOldFlame's sister. I have not opened it yet and don't intend to until tomorrow.

My 5 year ex called me today, just to catch up on things. She is working at a Victoria's Secret now, or something like that, and she is whupped on some asshole guy who of course is treating her like shit. She asked me what I am doing for Valentine's Day. I told her, not a fucking thing. She said, well I'll be your Valentine. I said, 'that's great, but that's not really helping me, can you get me some weed?'

The still point of the turning world

Did I mention the lowest point of last year? This was in October - when the police officer took me into the room with the tinted glass on the walls, and he took my pictures and my fingerprints. Then he gave me one call, and I called my mom, who sounded more sad than hysterical. Then he told me to just sit there until my family came to pick me up. He closed the door and I took a look at myself in the tinted glass but I turned away quickly because I couldn't stand to look at myself, then I stared at a point on the wall and let my mind go blank as I started counting backwards from 100.

I never mentioned going to the police station because, well, it's not exactly 'positive fun', and I'd rather forget about it. When I opened my eyes, and was led out into the reception area, JCB and Effect were there to bail me out. Things were bad for a few weeks afterwards, but I eventually dealt with my problems and felt well enough by Christmas. I haven't really recovered the state that I had in the middle of the summer. I think meeting AHBRussianGirl around Thanksgiving brought me back to life, but I'm still not where I should be - because in my heart I know there are a couple of major problems in my life that are still unresolved. They have been eating away at me for a long time, and it's time I acknowledged them.

What I am saying is that, I may not write for a while, or I may slip again into depression, but it is for the best - these things that I refer to are the last remaining problems in my life I can think of that I have not completely owned. I need to face up to them in order to eventually, someday, be right with myself again.

On the coldest night of the year, as the city lies sleeping beneath a blanket of snow, I am preparing to take a hard look at some things that I've been neglecting for too long. I feel scared. Hopefully this will end a cycle of bad karma that began when I quit my old job, my ex girlfriend broke up with me, and I decided that I didn't care about myself anymore.

Old flame Episode 2 - The Sister

The HBOldFlame on the dating website keeps looking at my profile - but I have not messaged her. I was just going to leave it at that - but today I noticed a new development.

It looks like her sister has also added me to her favorites list. I noticed this because hardly anybody adds me to their favorites just out of the blue. Then I took a look at this new girl's pictures - and her pictures were taken in HBOldFlame's house. From looking at her, she looks like HBOldFlame's older sister.

Both sisters are hot. HBOldFlame is younger and hotter. I'd probably have hot monkey sex with either, gladly. I am not messaging either, although I think I should probably email the sister and say 'hey do you know (HBOldFlame's first name)? your apartment looks familiar?'. HBOldFlame is really bad news - she is a totally Attention Whore, plays guys off each other, and I've already messed up with her. She is so hot though, I am going to be thinking about her again.

If we do wind up communicating with each other again it will be under different circumstances. When we first met I was an AFC with no knowledge of the game. Right now I am partway through my Jedi training. I'm about at the stage Luke was at when he had to leave Dagoba at the end of Empire, not exactly a Jedi Master, but not exactly a Padawan either. HBOldFlame, however, is definitely the Sith lord of HB Attention Whores.

Money, again, 30 Days to Success

I've decided to try Steve Pavlina's 30 Days to Success plan, to establish the habit of keeping my financial affairs organized. I noticed Resilient and several people on the Steve Pavlina forums have gotten positive results out of it. I have to get my finances in order, it's just been making my life miserable for a long time now.

The people on the Steve Pavlina forums typically take on several challenges over the 30 day period. I only have one challenge for the next 30 days, but Lord knows it's an important one. I think it is something that will profoundly affect every other part my life. I have been working at it for several months now, but everytime I make some headway with getting this part of my life in order, I start slacking again.

I want to keep it simple. Starting 2/12/07, I will spend at least an hour a day taking some action related to improving my financial situation. This action cannot be reading or planning.


Those of you who know me, know that money is my weakness in life. I just have been unable up to this point in my life to live a responsible financial life. As a result, I am constantly stressed out about bills that seemingly pop out of nowhere, and I'm plagued by undefined anxieties that I am not saving enough for the future. It is time to face the reality of my existence, and begin to live consciously.

You can't solve the most difficult problems of your life until you fully understand them. You have to drag your problems out into the light, acknowledge them, then come up with a plan to handle them.


I will be blogging about my progress of course. More to come.

Phone Sex, The Slump Buster

I'm sick lately. I had to cancel going to the Ultimate Fighting Championships with JCB yesterday, and I've been moping around the apartment all day. It is below zero in Chicago lately, I have not been in the mood to go out because the weather has been so brutal, you feel like your face is going to fall off just walking to your car.

Last night I stayed in and watched a movie. I was really bored, so I called this one girl from online who gave me her number last week. I had sort of written her off because she is sort of larger than I normally go for. She has a really pretty face though, but after evaluating the situation I decided not to pursue it. I do a lot of crazy things when I'm bored, though.

So last night I call her up and I am running game on her just to practice - I run through the 4 questions routine, the road diverges into 3 paths routine, even the goddamn 'cube'. She loves it. 'What are you some kind of psychologist?' she says. All of a sudden she starts talking freaky! She starts taking her clothes off and starts playing with her vibrator and talking all this nasty sex talk. It is late and she does have a sexy voice - so I join in! She has me so horny that I tell her to get over here now, so I can sexx her. She tells me if it wasn't one in the morning and 10 degrees below zero, she would!

She tells me I can call her tonight after I go out with my friends. Which means if I wanted to, I could bring her over to my place and sexx her.

I don't have many prospects at the moment. I have been talking to a couple of women, now but they are not that great. There is also the dreaded AHBRussianGirl, but I've been trying to spend time away from her. Should I just sexx this girl and not tell anyone? I've been confronted with similar situations in the past and I've always decided not to. This time I could just be horny enough to go through with it. I am the world's biggest jackass. I probably wouldn't take her to meet my friends or anything. Does this make me horribly superficial? I like talking to her, and she had me turned on last night, though.

A man gets lonely for female companionship. One friend of mine, he is a natural. I haven't known him for long, but one of our other friends tells me he always has some type of girl. This natural friend of mine tells me to 'harness the power of The Slump Buster'. What is the Slump Buster you ask? The answer, he tells me is this: 'sometimes, you gotta fvck the ugs'. He tells me that when he is in a slump, he fvcks ugs, this eliminates the 'aura of desperation' that surrounds a guy when he is not getting sex. Women can sense that you are getting laid, even by an ug. And you don't care what happens with any one girl because you are at least getting some. JCB tells me that he has had one night stands with some overweight women in the past.


Now, this guy has had a girlfriend for a year. I have seen the girlfriend and she is about a 7 in looks - only barely above mediocre, even by my standards, which aren't terribly high. Seems that the Slump Buster has worked for him but, is he really satisfied with this girl? I wouldn't be, even though that may sound really superficial. Honestly, we could get along and have all kinds of stuff in common, but I wouldn't want to commit myself to that a 7, not when I know that I can get 9's if I really work on my game and push myself.

I've gotten a fair amount of winks online - but they are mainly ugs. My natural friend would tell me to game these girls and fvck them, hence the Slump Buster. I just can't bring myself to do it. I have had two girls in the past week wink at me, and basically give their phone numbers to me and ask me out. I just stopped responding to them because I can't get myself worked up enough about them since I'm not that physically attracted to them.

What is your feeling about the Slump Buster? Do you think I am shooting myself in the foot, cheating myself out of something (sex, a good relationship) because my standards may be too high?

Are you finding it difficult to watch your parents age?

My mom seems to be ageless. She has looked - almost the same - for as long as I can remember, and she seems really healthy as far as I can tell. My dad on the other hand has had a lot of health problems, and is now really sick at times, although lately he seems to be doing better.

We've had a really troubled history, my parents and I. For a number of years in the 90s we didn't even speak to each other. They've really mellowed out the past few years and I've also changed - we've become a lot closer.

Last weekend I was over at my parent's house. My little brother still lives at home, but he is saving up to move out of the house. I realized that I want to visit them as much as possible before he leaves the house, because when he leaves the house it will be an empty nest and it will really be like the end of my childhood in a way. I'm sure once he's out of the house it will make them feel really old.

It's weird how all of the things that I used to be so angry about just seem meaningless now. I can just see that our time together on this earth is fleeting, and one day they will not be around anymore. I really don't like to think about those types of things. Me, my brothers and my dad are planning to take golf lessons together. When I suggested it, my dad just lit up. I think any chance to spend some time with his sons these days brings him great joy.

What do you get when you have 30 lair guys, all trying to be 'Alpha males'?

Answer: A BUNCH OF DOUCHEBAGS.

Privilege

On Saturday night, me and Linux1 met up with Linux2 and WifeOfLinux2 at Bob Chinn's Crabhouse in Wheeling. We got really drunk on Mai Tais, but we ordered wrong - I should have gotten my usual Mahi Mahi instead of the Tuna and Hachami Sashimi.

Afterwards we went to this place called the Living Room, which was totally bizarre - there were no sets. The place seemed to be populated by a bunch of 50 year old secretarial looking women on their day off, and a bunch of middle aged guys in suits. I did an approach - probably the only young-ish looking girls there, but I got blown off.

Later on, we went to this club Privilege by Woodfield mall. This was more my style. I would describe Privilege as being sort of like 720, except there are more white girls there, a fair amount of latinas, a salsa band, a smaller area with beds(?) - I don't get the beds. The women at Privilege were pretty hot. Probably as hot as Salud on a good night, but a little more suburbanish, not that I mind. It is a lot less crowded than 720, but more expensive and you still have to know how to dance, because the music is so loud you won't be able to talk to anybody. So it's another one of these high priced clubs where it's all about how you look and how well you can dance. I noticed most of the guys didn't know how to dance, in fact they were mostly horrible. The guys that were out on the dance floor were either a. dancing with the girls they came with, or b. really really good dancers, and were doing the 'spin move' with random girls. I have to get good at dancing, or at least semi decent. Or at least really drunk so that I don't mind making a fool of myself. Most likely I will just wind up drinking more so that I will have enough balls to rub up on the girls on the dancefloor. Regardless, my smooth lines are going to waste in a place like this. Luckily I have my exotic good looks to fall back on. I told JCB about Privilege and of course he wants to hit it sometime.

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Miscelleneous bitching

I have this online dating thing down to a science, and thanks to JCB's recent pics, I'm getting more attention on these goddamn sites. Log on just to answer mail. So I don't have to be logged on all the time, I save their profiles as web archives so I can construct my responses and look at their hot pictures without having to be logged in. Run a search for cute girls that match my extensive criteria, then save their profiles so that I can construct my emails at my leisure. I hate hate hate using them but it's 8 degrees below 0 these days - I'm not going to be walking from bar to bar every night making approaches. It's just not gonna happen. So far, I have gotten like 5 winks last week - one girl gave me her number right away, then never answered when I called her. WTF that was all about I'll never know - she seemed like she might be fat anyway. I gave my number to another girl, but then I never answered when she called me. I kind of had second thoughts about her physical attractiveness after studying her pictures a little longer. There is a cute Japanese woman who has been emailing me - she just seems nice, I'm not sure how well I'd get along with her. She is a really brilliant electrical engineer though, which I find cool. There's this latina chick with huge tetas - it seems like she only logs in once a week or so. There is this really *hot* jewish chick with cute glasses I've been emailing that I hope I get a day2 with.

The old french chick has been looking at my profile online, I caught her viewing my profile again last night. So far I have not messaged her, even though I am pretty much thinking about sexxing her 24 hours a day now. I'm also thinking about all of her craziness and how it may not be worth it. I have decided to give it a week or two and see if she contacts me first. That would make it easier.

AHBRussianGirl only calls me up to come over when she wants something, like when she needs me to help move furniture. She can never get anyone to babysit her kid, and she never wants to do anything fun.

Babble, Babble, Bitch, Bitch
Rebel, Rebel, Party, Party
Sex, sex, sex, don't forget the violence
Blah, blah, blah
Got your lovey-dovey sad and lonely
Stick your stupid slogan in
Everybody sing along

Are you motherfuckers ready for the new shit?
Stand up and admit it, tomorrow's never coming

Indie Rock Sluts

Unfortunately we did not meet any indie rock sluts the night me and Linux1 went to see my ex roommate Jennifer play this club called the Beat Kitchen, but I did do one approach - and I got another # close. She seemed like a nice girl and not at all slutty.

Jennifer is a singer songwriter / rocker who I lived with for a number of years back when I lived in NYC. She has since gone on to great success and has procured a major label record contract. She seems to be really gaining in popularity - she's received positive reviews in the Village Voice, NYTimes, Pitchfork, and a bunch of other industry mags. Whenever Jennifer comes to visit, the indie rock is always in full effect. Jennifer is always on tour these days, or recording a new album or something. We sat around my apartment and she showed me her iPhoto albums - I was like 'holy shit' while she showed me pictures of her in the studio with Yo La Tengo and Spoon, and partying on Tour with Destroyer and the Shins. She's really made it, at least from my perspective. I'm really proud of her.

Jen was opening for this band called the Kevin Devine group. She introduced me to the band, they seemed like cool guys. Linux1 and his friend left early but I wound up hanging out with the bands after the show and having a few beers. We tried to get into Schubas but it was late and the club was full so they weren't anybody else in.

The approach was cool, I basically used the 'hey what do you think of that band? that's my ex roommate' approach. I think I even used 'hey this song is about me'. Later, Jen told me that she saw the girls I was talking to, and they couldn't have been older than 21. Great, even I don't stoop that low.

Jen slept at my house and left around noon the next day. She took her Madonna box set and her jacket that I had been keeping all these years. They're hers, anyways.

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I dreamed vacations and all things plucked from the vine, I lost my keys in the vacuum of your worried mind

I can't move from sleeping, sleeping is the way that I move ... over the mountains, across the valley and back to you.

The Shins - Phantom Limb

This song will remind me about Jennifer, now, and saying goodbye to one of my oldest friends. I'm going to miss her again.

Salsa, looming large on the horizon

JCB dragged me out to 720 the other week, I forgot to write about this. 720 is a huge club downtown, it's 5 levels, with a different stle of music on every level. He knows this website where you can register to get on the guest list for free. There are even salsa lessons and open bar til 11. The place was really loud. I hadn't done any approaches in a while, and I wound up doing I think 2 sets that night. One was this new opener - not really an opener, just an idea I had where I would pretend like I was Vince Vaughn in Swingers. So I walk up to this 2 set of latina chicks and act in this really exaggerated hip guy persona:

(pointing to JCB) Hey. See this guy? That's the guy *behind the guy*.
(they nod their heads)
JCB steps in, and proceeds to do his thing, whatever that is.
Every once in a while I interject with a or a 'you're money', then walk away.

So that wasn't really a full approach, more of an assist and a experiment in trying out the persona of Vince Vaughn.

I also do a half assed one on this short hair hottie, I think I started with 'Do you know where the Darkroom is?' then segued into 'you see this guy? he's the guy behind the guy blah blah blah' then 'can you help me learn these salsa moves?' She giggled a few times but it was really half assed, plus I was way drunk.

This was a couple of weeks ago. That club is worth trying again. It is a little different type of sarging environment because it gets so loud after a certain time that you can't talk, so you have to dance. I have to get used to this new non-verbal type of sarging. This one dude Jack we met at the club was basically just grinding on girls and spinning them around on the dance floor - he's also a semi decent dancer, I think it also helped that he was drunk off his gourd. JCB and this dude Jack knew how to work it - they would really work the kino on the dance floor. You better know how to dance at that place - it's all about the latinas and being a smooth dancer. Needless to say, I'm a shitty dancer. JCB has taken some salsa lessons in the past. I may go there early next time to sit in on these free salsa lessons they give at around 10, before the place gets really crowded. Did i mention they have open bar til 11? Nice. JCB tried gaming a two set - fat and ugly chick and an ok looking but really slutty chick. The slutty chick didn't like him, but the fat one did. He was so frustrated that he wanted to leave early. The next week he tells me he went back, and met some woman who just got divorced from her husband and was from out of town, and he went back to her friend's place and sexxed her. I wouldn't be surprised if JCB has some type of venereal disease by now.

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Old flame might be back

Those of you who have followed this blog since its inception will remember the case of the Attention Whore French Chick. Well guess what?

It was almost a year ago when we met on a personals site. She was damn hot, probably a 9. I was AFC as hell when I went out with her, in fact she's the reason I started reading about the game.

We went out a couple of times. It is a long story what happened between us. I was really in at one point, we fooled around on the first date - but after the first date I started getting really bad oneitis for her and I ruined it by becoming really AFC. It ended like this:

we were on the phone and she said something insulting to me, I forget what it was. This snapped me out of my AFC-ness, I realized that this girl was disrespecting me and I got really pissed. I guess she thought since I was a huge AFC she could say whatever she wanted to me. I slammed the phone down on her and never spoke to her again. That was almost a year ago.

I have not been back to that dating site in a long time, ever since I started going out in the field and approaching. I came back last month, because it is cold out and I don't go out as often as I did last year, so I have been doing some online game to make up for it. I took my profile off invisible so that people can see I am online. Today I look and it shows that another person had added me to their favorites list - and it was this girl.

I added her to my favorites list, but I haven't messaged her. Should I message her, or leave her alone? God I'd really like a second chance with her, I know I can do a lot better now.

I feel like Doogie Howser

Every time I sit down to write a new blog entry, trying to come up with a neat summation of the things that happen to me in my life. It is impossible to try to put everything in these nice little boxes. Case in point, AHBRussianGirl. Every time I feel like it is going good with her, it goes downhill again. And I have really bad oneitis for her at this point. I don't know what to do about it except do what I do best - go out and sarge. I have been talking with a couple of girls I closed last month and a couple from online. AHBRussianGirl is not the greatest, I don't understand why I have it so bad for her. But these girls I'm talking to right now - except one - are not as good as her. I have to GFTOW. It's the only way I'm going to get over this oneitis. I can't believe I have oneitis for AHBRussianGirl, I never would have expected that. She is not that bright, a single mother for Christ's sakes, and can be extremely bitchy. Her face isn't even that great. You know what it is? She has one of the most rocking bodies I've ever laid my eyes on. Wow. That ass.